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Mon, 24 Aug 2009 21:15:34 GMT

Life is only exciting to talk about when I'm overseas. Something about getting crazy excited/refreshed when I'm doing what i was created to do. :):)

I've been here for a day and its been one full day! Arrived this morning @ 8:00am, Beth [aka awesome missionary I'm going to soak up all wisdom and knowledge from possible] picked me up and we went about a half mile before we broke down :)

This ministry is awesome. I'm incredibly impressed by the organization/administration of it all. Beth and I had some great conversation in the three hours we waited for Lois to arrive. THEN-!

Lois Arrived!! Really, really love being with her. Looking forward to alot of updating and what not. We're at nearly the same place/season in life about now so its good to talk to her- be friends, ya know? :)

So excited to be here, so thankful to be here. so excited for the rest of my life like this!

BTW, Malaria is possible. But don't have all the details yet ;)

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 13:26:12 GMT

Pursue more of His fruit in your service. If your service for God lacks the fruit of changed lives, you don’t have to try harder, pray more, or claim greater territory in service. Instead, you should examine your personal relationship with Jesus to see how closely you’re connected to Him. It’s the quality of your connection to Jesus that will determine whether or not you’ll have the power to bear good fruit for His kingdom. The fruit you bear isn’t produced through your own efforts; it’s produced by the Holy Spirit through you as you consistently rely on God. Jesus is the Vine and you are the branches. God may sometimes choose to prune you to bear good fruit by cutting out of your life everything you depend on – except your relationship with Jesus. When you’re forced to pay attention to your relationship with Jesus because that’s all you have, your connection to the Vine gets bigger, empowering you to produce more fruit. Trust God when He prunes the branches of your life; He knows what’s best to help you grow. Pray for greater fruitfulness in your service, asking God t conform you more closely to the image of Jesus, use you to make others want to know Him better, give you opportunities to share His Gospel and give you the fruit of changed lives as a result, draw others to Himself through a Bible study you lead, or give you one person to share His love with today.
- Pursuing More of Jesus by Anne Graham Lotz

Mad Libs making a come back :)

Sun, 31 May 2009 00:49:51 GMT

Plans for a Great Summer

This is going to be the most fluffy summer ever. I am going to sleep until early. Then I am going to have pizzas for breakfast.

After breakfast, Laura and I will go to the beach and build sand trees all morning. If we get bored, we will go down to the park and go roller stomping. For lunch we will have ice cream sandwiches.

Later in the summer, I may take a trip to Dallas to visit Brad Pitt. Or maybe I will go to camp and learn Rhino-back riding. I definitely want to watch Sweet Home Alabama four times.

Last week, my parents were talking about having me clean the people out of the garage. They also want me to close the lawn every week. And I think they said something about ending in the garden. I hope they won't be too fat when they find out I already have plans!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 19:29:17 GMT

Looks like its been a while since I've written here. I'm not sure if anyone follows anyway. Theres a heck of alot going on in my world...most of which i'll leave there and not attempt to explain.

I'm finding that i'm being forced to plan my life at least 7-9 months in advance. I guess I kinda knew it would happen this way but i somehow figured it would be as hard as it sounds....Mmm- It is. It is as hard as it sounds.

This summer is looking to be grand, however. Staying in VA- but moving to a much better place with much better people (at least one much better person). I'm probably more excited than i should be. Its just about consuming all my mind space right now and theres not much of that to go around....oh well. :)

Its hard to catch up after not writing so long...I think i'll give up :)

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 23:02:57 GMT

Mmm, it was a beautious day!!

Woke up to the house all to myself, made breakfast and went to church with an expectancy i haven't had in a long time, mostly just determined to really, honestly give rather than work hard to get something from Him. Awesome worship time and an awesome sermon, followed by God doing breakthrough stuff with my wretched self. That coupled with the awesome weather and pure relaxation made for an incredibly refreshing day. :) I got to spend all day outside watching little kids and kites and puppies. And making it all the better sorta kinda being with my favoritest...Ending the day with a lazy run and conversations with long lost family.

It couldn't get much better than today. Thanks Jesus.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 20:06:26 GMT

Baby # 102 slipped into my hands last night...It's been so long and it felt so good. Doing what I'm supposed to be doing kind of a thing.

I've had an epiphany- i'm crazy, amazingly, outrageously blessed. For real! I can't get over how God is lining things up only how He could do it. Its like He's pulling all the strings just to pour blessings on me. Like I'm the only one He's got to worry about. Like Hes just thinking about me all day long and how He can be good to me, how He can overwhelm me with Himself. Its like...thats His character. He is only good.

In other news:

I get to see my neices next week! Im crazy excited, maybe planning a little sleepover...and ofcourse i'm excited about seeing my sister and brother too. And then I get to see my parents! Both of them, on their way back up to NY from Fl. Excited kaayo ko.

One of the clients bb's tested positive for an incredibly rare and serious metabolic disease. Hes getting diagnostic tests done today. The situation surrounding it is even more heartbreaking and difficult. We're praying that the test was a flop and the bloodwork comes back negative.

My car passed inspection! There were those who had doubts but...it seems like it just keeps getting better and better. At one point i thought sure the transmission was going to die tomorrow. Now, its not giving me any trouble at all. It starts everytime, it goes when i push the gas and stops (eventually) when i push the breaks. I'm happy as a clam :)

I've made plans for the next couple of years of my life. Their kinda what i was expecting except for a few major details :) Either way- I'm crazy, crazy excited. And hoping I can get TK in on some of that excitment ;)

I've been home for 6 months. Have i already posted that? Either way, the States isn't so bad. But i def. realized how easy it is to get sucked in. Wouldn't mind going overseas to get my mind straight again. And i'm thinkin I my as well make it the Philippines :) How sadly unrealistic :(. Then I could see Joan and play ball with Krys and frisbee with Jo and Jw. Ok, enough of that.

I'm exhausted, hence the rambling.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 20:34:18 GMT

I've been sitting around for about 90% of this day. And about 50% of the week. And, yet, still being productive :)

The more I get myself into this midwifery world the more I realize their is to learn. I'm reading alot, researching alot and really gaining a ton of respect for these U.S. midwives. They research and experiment like its thier job- always looking for some sort of cure or alternative treatment. Anywhere but here people just call them natural discomforts of pregnancy and learn to 'deal with it'. Ya right, no one just deals with anything here. Theres always at least 10 suggestions to alleviate any slight discomfort. Even labor pain itself, there are all sorts of ideas out there to take this or that so many times as labor starts to reduce pains. Ok, i've never been through it myself so I don't have much room to talk but isn't that at least one guaranteed pain of childbearing?! Its the 'rite of passage' and at the same time their trying to take it away. Your right, I'll wait till its my turn and then start talking.

In conclusion- these midwives are dedicated and crazy smart and inspiring. And if I were a bit more ambitious I would try to be just like them but i'm not even sure if its possible.

I'm freezing...along with the rest of the U.S. I guess. I don't really have any right to complain. Come summer I'm going to complain its way too hot...then I'll go to the beach :) Mmm...that sounds like heaven right now. If only it were Isla Reta.

SO, since I've been living here at 'grandmas' I've had this invention they call Cable TV. Its ridiculous. More than anything else in the world. Some of it is educational and thats great fun but some of thing they make TV shows out of is just plain stupid. Most of the time I turn it on, flip through the channels and end with 'God, have mercy on us'. Maybe its just their to burden me to pray for our stupid nation.

I've had an incredibly uneventful week. Bible studies or church or something of the sort almost every night and absolutely nothing during the day. I stored up on energy for next week- working a bunch and good potential for 2-3 births along with an appointment day. And a possible visit from the parents! :):)

Basically, theres a heck of alot more going on with me that I don't feel the need to blog about so I'm just rambling instead :)

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 20:18:39 GMT

I'm in between appointments for now. Last client at 6pm and then some sort of pg meeting to go to.

Life at the new homestead is SPLENDID.

My mom just visited me for a few days, it was wonderful.

I get to work in the am. Probably not so crazy about that as i should be.

I've been sleepy all day with absolutely nothing to justify it. Its leaving me in some sort of daze where i'm trying to get things done but can't even remember what needs to be done. I've been pretty disconnected all day and thats not a good thing on app. days.

and...HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 22:59:35 GMT

I moved. I spent the majority of the day with Kati painting my room and chillin with her while I unpacked and rearranged and such. It was a good day full of crazy sarcasm and laughing at things that weren't even funny.

I actually know how long i'll be staying here. Thats a change for once :) May will be the month. Matt and Kati are looking to move in while he goes back to school so I'm getting kicked out. It'll work out really well considering thats when the last of my clients are. Who knows what'll happen after that...I'm more than likely taking a break from midwifery and going to work a 'normal' job for the summer. Maybe head home with my parents, maybe stay in VA. God knows :)

I got my birthday/Christmas present today :) A GPS. I'm lovin it :) i've been thinking about investing in one since i've literally been living off of mapquest.com for the last few months. I'm thoroughly against them for road trips- because they take the adventure out of it BUT for things such as my jobs I think its important. I had a bit of a freak out the other day thinking about not being able to find a clients house when she was in labor (mapquest didn't work for her address) and going places to clean they usually just send me an address and expect me to get there. Nothing like a perfect/practical gift :)

I'm missing my nieces a whole heck of alot lately. I just realized that i've been wearing this necklace in public. Amanda made it for me- and it really looks like it was made by a 6yo. haha, i've gotten quite a few comments on it :)

God is my refuge.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 20:55:12 GMT

I'm about to fall asleep Which wouldn't be so bad except that I'm at the library on a public computer surrounded by lots and lots of people.

'Work' has officially begun. I think I like it :) Its nice being in that place where you have a schedule, you go, you get it done and then you get a pay check. Its easy. One of the few things that is right now...haha, I'm such a whiner. I'm getting alot more 'hours' than I expected. Which is technically ok and even good. I'm just praying that it won't 'interfere' with midwifery-considering thats the reason I'm here in the first place.

Decisions are the new cool thing in my life these days. I'm getting closer and closer to being an expert at this. I'm going to take my bro's ideas and start teaching weekend seminars and then mentoring people on 'How to be Decisive'. I'm sure I could make some good money...or maybe not.

I now have the option of boarding with an older lady who just 'lost' her husband. Shes not feeling so good being at her house alone. The idea is great- my own room, bathroom, and the rest to share. The price is great. Drawbacks include the location- its at least 15 mins from where I'm staying now and the only way I 'learn' and know whats going on is if I'm there sticking my nose in things that I think might be important. And my car. I'm not so sure if it would appreciate driving so much. And the money issue. Now that I have this job I'm driving a heck of a lot and I'm wondering if I should go ahead and buy a decent car before my mustang dies. Haha, that makes me laugh just thinkin about it.

And ofcourse I have the decision of taking clients...and ofcourse the pressure from all sides. And once again- God will be the one :)

I'm not sure I'm making any sense.